So, I may have been cut-off financially last night. I have to call my dad back, but according to what was said I was. We'll see.

There are very clear ways to prevent this from happening, but I'm not sure I'm willing to do that.

I have a meeting with my advisor. I'll sit down and talk with her and see if she (or if not, someone else) and I can sit down and work out what the most rational plan is.

family portrait

and sometimes I have to wonder:

if i disappeared too, would they feel the same sympathy as when he left? or would they start to question what happens in that house?

"I don't think that I'm strong enough to do this much longer..."

Warning: despite the fact that I haven't posted in forever, this post is going to be rather negative.

Falling behind on schoolwork. Actually, that's a lie. I have already fallen behind.

Don't yet have a job. Don't yet know where I'm living.

Two papers due last week. One due today. And, really, that sucks. Because they're not done. This is reminding me of Junior year of high school, except I really only fell behind in one class then.

And I have to write a lovely letter to E. Which is the hardest of everything on my ToDo list. But has to get done. And soon.

It's so much harder to get work done when I'm already behind. It's also harder when I have so much on my mind.

So, April.

Carnival was good. A's cousin is adorable and took to me quickly, which was great. Stressful and busy at points, but good.
Not much else happened.

Oh, I declared another major. No, I didn't switch again. I simply added Creative Writing as an additional major.

Friday is six months with A, so we're doing dinner and going to the incline.

Also, saw Allison Bechdel last night. I was impressed.

Ok, this entry is just a jumble. It's time to stop.