"So sick in the head I need to be bled dry to quit"

It's interesting being a psych major and starting to recognize and understand some of the processes we all go through all the time.

For example, we often have emotions we don't want to acknowledge or think we shouldn't. Ok, so maybe you don't need a psych class to figure that out.

I am finding myself still frustrated and upset about the way my him has been acting towards me. Barely acknowledging me, blatantly avoiding me, etc. He had said last semester that, no matter what, we could still hang out this semester. There was a movie I wanted to see that he promised we'd watch together. He said that he had formed too close a friendship with me to just let it slide. Etc.

Now, I should know from the fact that he lies so much that the chance of him following through with any of this would be slim to nil. Still, today I asked him if we were ever going to watch the movie. His response? He'd ask SS to get the house to show it for a movie night.

And now I'm feeling upset, more upset than I want to admit. Because, God damnit, he could occasionally follow through on something. Or not lie. Or just be forthcoming and say, I don't really want to see you, instead of a vague avoidance that pretends he is following through. Geesh.

And I don't want SS seeing I'm upset over this. Past experience has taught me that significant others don't seem to like you being upset over someone from your past for any reason. Plus, considering they're best friends, it seems like complaining about my him is not going to go over well regardless.

Ugh.